Thursday, November 16, 2017


i just got finished reading a book called "My (not so) Perfect Life" by Sophie Kinsella 
I really enjoyed it. i loved this quote that was close to the end of the book......
 "but there's other stuff in her life too. Stuff that balances out the bright and shiny on the one side; the crappy truth on the other. I think I've finally worked out how to feel good about life. Every time you see someone's bright and shiny, remember: they have their own crappy truths too. Of course they do. And every time you see their crappy truth and feel despair and think; Is this my life, remember: it's not. Everyone's got a bright and shiny, even if it's hard to find sometimes."  
there is so much striving to have this perfect life......i have learned to not really care about the look of how perfect things are.
take this picture for ironic that my son had to have a tooth pulled, me a dental assistant.
here's to #MyNotSoPerfectLife #embraceIT

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Wednesday, November 08, 2017

Speech therapy

We have been going to speech therapy for 7 years now. It is hit or miss on how enjoyable it is. The misses have nothing to do with our speech therapist. We love her and think that she is just what Golden boy needs for this time in his life.
So we have our fair share of discouragement and frustration while at speech but he almost always pushes through even through gritted teeth and tears. 

When he was smaller I used to sit beside him and attempt to help keep him going.

Another time in life we decided for me to wait in the waiting room while he went in and had therapy by himself.

It's been a while since then. Now I am back in there with him but I drag a chair back behind them. I don't say much. He clearly knows I am there but if he really gets going and isn't distracted it's like he forgets I'm there but if he is struggling and not focusing I can help get him back on track and be there for a hug during the times he looses it and the tears start. 

It is truly amazing to think of where he was in speech and language and where he is now.  There are still things that need to be worked on but the leaps and bounds that he has made have been incredible. 

Recently she is working on these pages where they give statements like:
The sun____________
A lion_______________

There isn't really a wrong answer unless you said the sun is not real or something like that but today these were his answers to those two and our Speech therapist said how much she liked his answers and I just had to jot then down because they were great:

The sun.......lights the world
A lion........hunts

I think the more common answers may be is bright and roars. Golden boy is not common or ordinary. He is unique and creative and head strong and energetic and strong and brave. I know speech therapy can be a struggle and frustrating (the great thing is that his sleech therapist gets that too. She understands how much energy it takes for him to listen all day long and sometimes by the time he gets to her he is just done.) She is patient and kind and pushes when she needs too and steps back when she needs too. We are so very thankful for her.

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

Halloween 2017

halloween 2017 was pretty easy for costumes. 
Golden boy never really knows. i think at one point he said he wanted to be Baymax. he also mentioned Director Krennick but ultimately he went with Baymax. and i am so glad he did. 
The costume had a little fan inside that blew up the suit. he wore the costume to the school fall festival and got so many comments on the costume. everyone loved it. if there was a costume contest i bet he would have won.

 after seeing Descendants and then Descendants 2 Little Girls was set on being Evie. We thought she was going to choose to be Moana but it was Evie, all the way.

when they were little i was all about making their costume. now if they want something i have to buy it is all about finding the best deal on them. those costumes can be pretty expensive.

Thursday, October 26, 2017


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Wednesday, October 25, 2017

TOMORROW...... the day to sign up for SnapShop
it is a great program to help you to get your camera off of Auto mode and into Manuel. She has a phone photo course and lots of other great lessons of different areas of photography. 
I have been a student for over a year now and have really enjoyed the content and the access to it when i have a question about something with my camera.

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don't forget to put in the code FALL50 for your half off special.

Sunday, October 15, 2017


i am reading a book right now called Bittersweet by Shauna Niequist (you can download a sample chapter of the book at her website here.)

I have really enjoyed it, even though i am still early on in the book. 
these last few years i have been devouring non-fiction books, which are usually not my favorite kind of books.

the chapter that i am currently on in the book is called twenty-five. i was't sure what to expect when i started this chapter. what did twenty-five mean. Age, was not what i was thinking when diving into twenty-five.

i started thinking back to twenty-five.
i was married
no kids yet
living thousands of miles away from anything familiar
becoming familiar with new places
meeting new people
having adventures i could have never imagined
it my have been the poorest time in our life
but a time that changed and shaped and grew us the most

her chapter about what twenty-five is different and somewhat the same from my twenty-fifth chapter in life.
i was married young so there was no decision to be made about a relationship that my be good or bad for me.
i worked to pay the bills
i didn't have a season of space from going to church, in fact we jumped into finding a new church when we moved to WA state and we fell in love with the church and the people who attended that church. There was much community there.

Twenty-five was great. But over ten years is the now. There is lots we have learned from twenty-five. Lots that is better  because of twenty-five. Equally lots that we miss from being twenty-five. Surprisingly the no kids is not one of them. They have made life interesting and added to an adventure like no other.

Monday, October 09, 2017


When we left for Honey and Bears lake house Golden boy had one thing in mind, "i wanna go fishing," he said.
Saturday was supposed to be for fishing but after driving the boat to the beach area and and finding mounds of sand to play on with cousins, fishing got forgotten about.  

Sunday morning came around and he wanted to go and fish.  It was raining sons but that didn't keep him from going out and trying.  Bear even took him to a special fishing spot. 

Them came back with nothing but golden boy continued to fish from the dock. 

Soon he was calling us out as he reeled in this 3 pounder, thinking it was the biggest fish he caught at the lake so far. 

Not long after that he caught a small perch and threw it in the ice chest.

But it was a little bit later that he was yelling and calling for us. 

He wrestled this 11 pound fish in and was thrilled.

His laughter was contagious and his joy infectious.  
We loved standing and cheering for him. E encouraged him, making a fisherman out of him. 

I am so proud of the patience and determination he had. It pays off my dear boy, it surely does. 

Monday, September 25, 2017

Our runner

He has always been fast.
He doesn't get it from me or his daddy, and that's ok.
One day, We will probably be parents in the stands cheering at every one of his track meets. Maybe. If he wants. But whatever he chooses, We will be there.

Watching when they start

Getting near the finish line

6 minuets and 35 seconds

Last year he came in sixth. He did again this year too. But he beat his last year time.

I'm so proud of this kid.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

A Bike Rider

it has been a long time coming for Little girl to ride a bike.
she gets it honest though. I think i was way older than she was when i finally learned.
i am so proud of her and as you can see in the second picture, she is pretty proud of herself too.

she has some determination and grit.
when daddy came home with a bike for her and told her he would help she was ready.

she told us that now she just has to learn how to turn with out having to stop and start all over.
she will get there, i know it.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Written words

they have always been important to me.
i wrote letters growing up, too two friends that i saw on a weekly basis.
There was just something special about written words and it was great to get mail when you were younger.
i made friends at the summer camp i went to and we occasionally wrote letters to one another, until we saw each other again at camp the next summer.
I'm sure there were notes passed in jr. high but i remember it way more in high school.
Email happened around then and while it was no where near as wonderful as a hand written letter/note it worked too.
Now i am teaching my daughter about handwritten letters and how special they are. 
my mom brought me a wooden box, from my childhood home, a few months ago. it is a box that held all kinds of treasures over the years and came from my best friend growing up.

we have written numerous letters over the last 28 years.
We've lived in the same state for 13 of those years.
now she has a daughter and we have our girls writing to one another.
they have only met each another once.
i gave that little box to my daughter and put some of her letters from "D" in there.
i asked her where her current letter from "D" was and she said, "I put it in the box mom."

i dream of the day when we are once again living in the same state.
until then......
we have written words and occasional phone calls.

Friday, August 25, 2017


If anyone knows us or has been at a meal with us 7 or 8 years ago, you know how difficult prayer time was for that meal. It usually involved our oldest melting down in a fit because it was time to pray.

Needless to say, this, very much embarrassed me. Probably even my hubby too. He however recovered from it a whole lot quicker and easier than i did.

I begin with this small story because today I may have finally understood how my son feels about spoken outloud prayer.

I've never been crazy about praying out loud. I pray, sure, but I avoid outloud prayer as much as possible.  Today I was invited to a prayer time for our kids school. I'm not sure what I thought would happen once there, but I agreed to go.

If it had been a week or two ago I would say that there was a 100% chance that I would be emotional at said prayer meeting, today though......i was golden. Not feeling overly emotional, things ok.

I think I may get that tiny 2 and 3 and sometimes 4 year old boy that would burst out in fits and tears over prayers. I was there today.  Couldn't control it.  Don't know where it came from.

 I just couldn't hold back the tears. And maybe there is just something tender and emotional about talking to our maker, our creator, the one who loves us more than we could ever know.  I'm not sure this will get any easier.  I'm sure the next time we meet there will be tears, even though i wish it wasn't so. But I do know, That even though it's taken 6, maybe 7 or 8 years, I finally get maybe a smidge of what my sweet boy felt.

Or I at least hope.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017


 Ever witness that beautiful act of love?
I have been blessed to witness it twice fairly recently.  One was last night.

She kicked her shoes off and waded into the water to capture a lovely momma with baby in womb. It wasn't too much later that, that momma had her shoes on to protect her hurting feet from the painful rocks.

I love getting a glimpse of love on action.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Total Eclipse....or 97%

We were set
eclipse detail page, glasses, friends, food and oreos

we didn't camp out and watch the whole thing but we frequently made out way outside to see the progress

view through the glasses, clouds kind of got in the way too

later on that evening she was filling out her eclipse details and wanted to water color paint it instead of coloring it.

"The heavens declare the glory of the Lord. The skies proclaim the work of His hands." Psalm 19:1

Monday, August 14, 2017

Hands Free

It all started when a friend posted the simple question on Facebook of "What is your favorite Bible verse?"
The chasing started......the being sought out.... and then is came in and in and in. from different places and in different forms........

for weeks now i have felt stuck in a rut, frustrated, unsettled, discouraged.

everywhere i turned though, He was there, He is showing me He loves me, that i need to let go, that i need to continue to forgive. He shows up in random posts from random places on social media. He shows up in an elementary fiction novel. He shows up in a nonfiction book i read. He shows up in a Facebook live video i watched about family, He shows up in a Sunday morning sermon. 

this is what it looks like......
"And if not He is still good."
From the story in Daniel about his three friends telling King Nebuchadnezzar, that even if God DOES NOT save them from the fiery furnace (even though they believe that He CAN) that He is still GOOD.

that one right there popped up multiple times.

"If someone knows who he is, really knows, then he doesn't have to hate."
"Love. That's what makes persons know who they are. You're full of love, Meg, but you don't know how to stay within it when it's not easy."   

Then there is......"There are so many beautiful things to see, but when we spend too much time fixating on what other people want us to see, we miss them all."

"We must be surrender the desire to please surrender to the hope of being liked and accepted by surrender  the fear of making mistakes. we must be ready to release our words, choices, dreams-into the atmosphere knowing we cannot control other peoples reactions to them." 

I need to focus on the beautiful details right in front of me, instead of fixating on that which i cannot control.

Facebook live video......
"in humility count others more important than yourselves......" Philippians 2
Gary Morland posted the video here.

Then at church yesterday......sermon here (sermon starts at 29:20)
guess what he preached on.................

Philippians 2
see the chasing......

here are just a couple of things that i made note of in the sermon:
Our toxic mentality can then be lived out with one another, if we do not have the mind of Christ.
When you value people you show them that they have the priority.
What value does Jesus place on this person?
Making yourself low so you can lift others up.
Am i wanting something from this person or for them!
How are you going to treat people who you have power and influence over?
What is your identity wrapped up in?
Are you willing to serve even when it hurts?

Every night i have been praying to Love like He loves, to see people like He does. to get rid of any bitterness in my head and heart. He is drawing me near to Himself, stretching me and continuing to reach me. Wherever i am.

Wednesday, August 09, 2017

I just finished reading the book Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst
it took me over 7 weeks to read it all (i guess that is where the struggle is coming in trying to complete 52 books in 2017)

but i had too.
i just had to take that long and honestly it probably could have taken me longer. and technically i am not even done.

my sweet friend, who i often refer to as my sister in law, brought it to me to read, after just receiving the copy as a birthday gift, because she knew how much i was wanting to read this book.

i could have taken a picture of multiple pages in this book it has been so very good.

i mean this one right here:
"Relationships don't come in packages of perfection; relationships come in packages of potential. They have the potential to be hard at times. No matter what, it takes work to make it work. And wrapped in between the wonderful and the work are inevitable times of imperfection and possible rejection."

it goes on to say more that i just oozing with goodness.

see how this book could have taken me way longer.

how about this one:

i mean seriously.......her words are powerful and raw and honest.
on the page before this quote she wrote this: "If we are to escape the natural bitterness of the human heart, we have to go through a long process as well......the process of being cured."

this whole section was about about the olive tree and it may have been one of my favorite of the whole book, it is right at the end.

so i said that i am done with the book, but truthfully i still have about 18 pages left to go.
there is a bonus chapter that starts with a short letter from Lysa. this is what one of the last sentences says: "So if you're feeling brave, let's intentionally open our hearts. Ash the Lord to show us what He wants to speak to us. And then turn the page together."

This turning of the page, this being brave.....i am going to do it but i hesitate wanting to know if the pages that follow will show me, enlighten me, help me. This next chapter "What's it like to do life with me?", in Lysa's words is like this: "I've got blind spots. And the people who live in close proximity to me are probably more aware of them then i am."  no truer words.

These words are HARD, Lord show me my blind spots, show me were i can do better, be better, love better.

so here goes........i may or may not share how it goes.

regardless, you ALL should read this book.

Monday, August 07, 2017

First Day

It seems like just last year Golden boy was entering 2nd grade and not Little girl is going into 2nd grade

Golden boy into 4th grade

the years are flying by.
I am so lucky to be their mom.
Praying 2017-2018 is a fantastic year.

First day 2016
First day 2015
First and last days 2015-2016
First day 2014

Thursday, August 03, 2017


my mom took this picture of Golden Boy the week the she and my dad kept him.
as a baby and into a toddler he was such an active busy guy. aside from the fact that he looked just like my hubby, he seemed to have his personality as well. 
the past few years we have been reconsidering our thoughts on who he is more like. 
a quietness has seemed to embrace him. he seems to think more and enjoy more quiet times.
not that he still isn't a bundle of loud boy but i love these slow quite times with him.

i started to think about it when he crawled into the wagon in our back yard and just sat there.
i glanced out and saw him. i wondered what he was thinking about? what thoughts he was processing? where his brain was?
he glanced over at me though the widow and smiled, i smiled back and waved.

i wish i would have grabbed my camera to get a picture of him but it was so brief, just a quick moment and i am go glad that i at least to to glimpse it.

then there is this tiny one.
she is activity, creativity, busy, thoughtful, smart, daring and at time i see that contemplatives coming out in her too.

she was moving a lot here. the first three pictures that i took of her were blurry but then she stopped, she paused, she thought and i snapped it.
it was perfect.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Fishing.......enjoying slow

This boy is pure awesome-ness.
Last summer he missed his week with Honey and Bear and i think we were all sad about it.
This year we were certain to make a point of having him have a week at the Lake House.
It is one of his favorite places.
I love that he is getting this one on one time with my parents and that he has such a love for fishing.

when we left the lake yesterday he was out there fishing. we didn't think we would be able to get him in the house to say bye to him. we went out to hug and say bye to him and then let him go back to fishing.
my mom texted me last night and said that he didn't even want to come in for dinner, he wanted to eat on the dock and keep fishing.

this morning i got these pictures from her and she said here he goes.......

and he's off.......

i told her that i really think that he needed this.
he needed the down time to be able to relax and think and be still and quiet and just to enjoy the slowness of life. i am thankful for my parents and the time that they are getting spend with him. i know they will all be blessed by their time together and i am praying that Golden boy get the much needed rest for his body and soul before the craziness of school and schedules start.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Day 15....of our BIG trip (the long drive home)

so far the longest we had ever driven in a day was a little over 6 hours. 
this day it was FOR-E.V.E.R
oh my goodness. there was one point that my hubby looked over at me and said.....we would just about be in Disney World now, as long as we have driven.

we were all tired and ready to be home and after thinking through all the options, it was just better to drive the whole day and get home instead of stopping half way.

we did make a lot of stops but it was quick ones, reminded the kids that if we kept pushing on we would get home tonight and be able to sleep in our own beds and wake up in our house and play with our toys.

it kept them going but we were all spent by the time we walked through the doors. tears and exhaustion and we crashed hard.

i posted this  the night we got home.
there was a moment, driving through our state that was just dreamy.
the light 
the colors
the mist
it was dreamy and perfect
a little welcome home after so many days of being gone.

here it is all packed up
loads and loads of dirty laundry even thought i did laundry one day on the trip.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Day 14.......of our BIG trip

The place we stayed was an efficiency 
So we had a small kitchen
After eating out so much it was nice to get eggs and cinnamon rolls from the grocery store and cook instead.

That is what we did for breakfast.

After breakfast we packed to to go play in the pool and at the beach.

By my side most of the time.
I love my little side kick. I sometimes forget how much I am being watched.

Looking for shells again 

Floating in the lazy river

My little side kick again. She was helping me making spaghetti 

After lunch we took the kids to this obctical water course.

The loved it. Their version of a ninja worrier course

For lunch we went to a fish house called the flyin fish.  We ordered sword fish and tile fish.  There is Golden boy trying the sword fish and liking it.

A sunset walk on the beach rounded up the trip and the day.

Tomorrow we head home.

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