Feeling the Love

there is something amazingly sweet about children's love. they love so unconditionally and so fully. just yesterday after my little guy woke up(with the sweetest look on his face), ate breakfast (waffles, just about every morning), and went to the bathroom, he looked at me, as i was getting him dressed, and said "mommy?" i looked up and he threw his skinny, sweet, soft arms around my neck and hugged me so tightly that is just melted my heart. i stood up and just hugged him back hoping that, that hug relayed all the love the i felt for him and that he could just know and feel it just by the tightness that i was giving him in return. don't get me wrong i tell him multiple times a day that i love him and truly i do but hugs like that sometimes mean more than the words themselves. to top it all off i got to rock my sweet, soft, chubby baby girl to sleep last night and got to breath in her sweet smell. (even though she needs a bath there is still something sweet about the smell of a baby.) i am truly blessed and love times like those that remind me of that.

10 Months Old

Inadequate

the only word that i can describe for how i am feeling today. i am so blessed in this life, more that i can ever imagine but feeling like there is something missing. i love my family and i love that i get to stay at home with my kids. while i loved the job that i had before i became a stay at home mom i was never so career oriented that i needed to work to find fulfillment or satisfaction. but now being a stay at home mom i feel like i have no goals or things that i am passionate about. my days sometimes feel mundane and pointless. don't get me wrong i love my kids and delight in their joy and have fun with them. but after the plethora of appointments and things that have to get done i wonder if there was any use or point to my day. especially when i look around and see tons of things that have found there resting place on my table, how have i not found the time to pick it up or the places to put it. i'm just feeling disconnected from everything. i want to raise my children to be happy and to love the Lord but wonder if i am doing all that good of a job doing it. i am terrible with words, thought and putting things down but felt that i needed to type even if none of it is coherent or makes sense. i'm sure tomorrow will be different but this is today and what i am dealing with, feeling inadequate.

9 months old

Happy Valentine's Day

"Whatever our souls are made of,

his and mine are the same."

-Emily Bronte

8 months old

usually i post a pic of her looking right at the camera because her eyes are so amazing but i loved this one. she is looking at her big brother here, who is the light of her life. she loves to watch him and will stop anything she is doing to do so.

Tigger Ears

i am a total blogger slacker over a month after getting little guy's tigger ears i am finally posting a picture.
oh well at least i managed to get it posted.
he's really good about wearing them even though he protests ever time it's time to put them in.
he tells me "no tigger ears" but then he sits there very still and lets me put them in.
that's him though.
i ask him, "do you want oatmeal?"
he says, "no oatmeal." then follows that statement with "i want oatmeal."
it's exauting and funny at the same time.

Matthew 11:28

"come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden,

and I will give you rest.

take My yoke upon you and learn from Me,

for I am gentle and humble in heart,

and you will find rest for your souls.

for My yoke is easy

and My burden is light."

7 months old

Books read in 2010...

Sweet Dreams-Robin Jones Gunn
A Promise is Forever-Robin Jones Gunn
Treasury of Miracles for Friends-Karen Kingsbury
Witch on the Water-Christene and Ethan Rose
The Lucky One-Nicholas Sparks
Belong to Me-Marisa DeLos Santos
Girls in Pants(the 3rd Summer of the Sisterhood)-Ann Brashares
The Handmaids Tale-Margaret Atwood
The Last Song-Nicholas Sparks
The Five People you Meet in Heaven-Mitch Albom
Baby Wise (second time through)-Gary Ezzo
Love and Respect-Emmerson
Take One-Karen Kingsbury
Take Two-Karen Kingsbury
Take Three-Karen Kingsbury
Take Four-Karen Kingsbury

16 books
no nearly close to the 52 that i read last year
reading more books
something to try to do for 2011